Evaluation - The Pillowman 'THANATOS'

Evaluation


 The whole performance ran really smoothly and I was really happy with the way it went. Everyone gave their best. I am very happy with my performance and my team mates, I have never been in a play where it included anger, depression, suicide etc. At first it was a little bit hard for me to work with depression and getting my head around it and having to act like I've been bullied, going through depression, problems with my family. But having supportive friends like I did, it wasn't as hard as I thought to act it out. Each rehearsal it got easier and easier to act out as my character.


Each feedback from friends and teachers, I took notes and worked on it. Most of the feedback was articulation and projection, and less movements. I completely cut out all the movements because it wasn't really needed in my scene. I sat down in front of my bed and performed my scene like that. My scene was the most depressing one because I had no one to help me and I was getting bullied from everyone, school and home as well.


 


 
Strengths
My strengths were the audience and the time I had in hand. In the stage because I was the only one and everything was focused on me. Therefore I said to my self, there's no need to rush, whatever happens, it will happens because of me, I'm the only one in the theatre. I felt like I could pause for like 10 seconds and still be good because the play is about violence, depression and suicide therefore it makes sense. Being in the stage alone, is scary but its also amazing because you're on your own and you feel like you have the whole power in the stage, but also, if you mess up it will be a really tough situation to come back up because its not the same it improvise with a friend. Alone it will be a bit harder to improvise because if you forget a word or line, you will blank out and struggle.


My confidence grew much more because before it wasn't as good as it was now. My confidence got better, by acting in front of my friends and my teacher, making mistakes and improving on them. Making a mistake in front of your teacher isn't the same as making a mistake in front of the whole audience in the theatre. Therefore it helped me built my confidence and my ability to perform without any worries.


 
Weakness


Worrying about forgetting lines. This is really difficult. While Stephanie was performing her monologue, I was next, I kept going through my lines and sometimes I would worry about forgetting lines. I would then start getting nervous and it made it a little harder to know the lines and perform my monologue at my best standard.


Also, my weakness was articulation and saying a line in the monologue - 'Why would anyone care about a kid that lives down at 45 miller away' I was getting notes and feedback about this sentence because when I would say it, it was a bit fast and it seemed as if I stuttered the part when I said the address. At the final play, instead of say '45 miller way' I changed it to '45 miller road' and it was 100 times better than saying way, because it seemed like a tongue twister.


 




Moreover, I feel that this was my best play that I performed because I never had the chance to be in a play that was this sad/depressed. I was always a person that would play in normal performances and comedic scripts. I had never performed a script/monologue like this before. I would love and I will be performing more plays like this in the future.