6th - 9th March REHEARSALS FOR 'THE PILLOWMAN'

On Monday, we started our lesson in room K222. We went to our group and we were missing one person because he was filling ill. We then discussed on what we were going to work today so that we would get on with our work. Our group chose to do 'OBJECTIVES'. Meaning, why you saying the line/sentence like that, how are you feeling at the moment?, what's your expressions and things like that. I went through my script and as I was reading through, I kept asking myself how depressed is my character feeling at this moment, or, what's his mood and how he's feeling at the moment. I then started saying my lines as if I was the actual character and I read through my whole script. We then discussed with the group what we done and then we had a short run through with myself and Stephanie while Chris was observing us.

Chris then told us to tell the background of our character. I'm playing the character Dylan Ibra.

My background was;

'When I was born, my father wanted the first child to be a daughter. I still don't know the reason behind me, but yeah, he preferred a daughter first. When my mum gave birth to me, he found out that their first child was a boy, and ever since then he didn't like me at all. He was not surprised at all, my dad never loved me at all. Everything started since then. As I grew up, I was never able to talk to my dad, I would come home from school and go straight upstairs in my room. My dad would always watch football and he would take all his anger on me. He loves the Arsenal team and every time they lose, its like I'm his boxing punching bag, he takes all the anger out on me. He will leave me bleeding on the floor and he will not worry for me at all.

Then in year 7, that's when I met this person called 'Jonah'. Jonah was the best male sports man. He was always really athletic and everyone loved him. I hated sports especially 'football' all because of my dad and the experience I had with him. I remember it was during P.E (physical education) my class was going to play football, and I denied from playing it because I wasn't really interested to play. I see Jonah coming towards me aggravated, asking me why I'm not playing and calling me names and that I'm not a man if I don't play football. I already had enough of my dad beating me about football, I didn't want another person to enter that lifestyle to make me feel bad about sports. Therefore, I pushed him back, and his friends came to help, he stopped all of them and took of his shirt. I was ready to fight him because I didn't want to let him ruin me like that. As I swung towards him he blocked my punch, and he punched me on my face and kicked me in my stomach. I had a busted lip and a black eye. When  I got home, my dad was mad at me because he didn't want his son to lose no fight, he wanted his son to be a man and fight back. He then punched me on my face and pushed me away. I was crying and sobbing on the floor in a pile of blood thinking how my life got to the position it is now. As my dad walked away he turned around and said 'YOU USELESS SHIT' and he walked off. I run upstairs and started crying and I fell asleep. Everyday Jonah had bullied me till year 11, not only that but coming home with a bruised face did not help my dad seeing it. Instead of helping me, he would hit me as well for not fighting Jonah back. He would always push me and kick me around. He gave me bruises everywhere in my body. I ALWAYS THOUGH ABOUT ENDING IT ALL. It will never hurt anyone, everyone would be at peace and so would I'.

On Tuesday, we came to the dance floor and my group was not in. I took my script our and started memorizing my lines. As I would go through them, I would think about Dylan's impression and his mood, how would he be at that moment and how would he feel. I kept reading my script for about 20 minutes, then Stephanie came from my group. We done line learning and she had learn the whole script by heart which I was really amazed. I had learned about 3/4 of the script. We then started to act on how we would do it when we say the lines. (DON'T JUST SAY THE LINES WIHTOUT ANY MEANING). We went over our script couple times and we learned the lines a little bit better. I also annotated some lines to how the character DYLAN would feel and react when saying his lines.

 Especially when DYLAN mentions JONAH, he hates him so much because he made his life hell because DYLAN wasn't into sports much, and Jonah things all boys should be interested in sports.